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QUESTIONS OF THE SOUL

When your love has been rejected, how do you love? When your love is never enough, how do you love? When your love is shattered, how do you love? When your love is betrayed, how do you love? When your dreams are but shadows, how do you dream? When your dreams never come true, how do you dream? When your dreams are scorned by those you love, how do you dream? When your dreams turn to nightmares, how do you dream? When you’re misunderstood, how do you understand? When your understanding is deficient, how do you understand? When your understanding is false, how do you understand? When you understanding is clouded by pain how do you understand? When no one in your life has ever loved you, dreamed with you, or understood you; How do you love, How do you dream, How do you understand? You turn to God and pray. Begging God for love, dreams, and understanding. And you cry a waterfall of tears. And sometimes, you wish to die.

Ode to Columbia

Missouri      Misery            Mizzou  Words       Images            Feelings They come flooding over me like a fountain dammed up for a long time.         Are they good, are they bad?              I don’t know.                   I know they are strong. Why, what?         Why do I feel this way?              What is it about MISSOURI ? Not just Missouri but specifically Columbia . Visions flash in front of my eyes –       Hickman High, 16 years old, new girl in school.             A year later, married, pregnant, drop-out, failure – a ne’er do well. But MIZZOU      Legitimacy, not a failure,             a graduate, a degree                 but to some, still and always a loser. So much misery      so much pain           so much rejection                 volumes waiting to be written.   Is it MISERY or MISSOURI ? Visions of churches, 1 st Assembly where I married at 16; Christian Chapel where I tried to be legitimate and accepted.   Trying to